Where is the answer?

Sarah had a plan
and she thought her plan will work smoothly
she had done her best. she think.

but god know better.
Sarah`s plan failed.
Sarah wonder what god really want.
what god really want to show.
what god want to tell.
why He choose her.

she keep wonder.
she want to blame.
but do not know who to blame.
so she blame herself. this is really rare.
Sarah never blame herself.
because she know she is flawless.

Sarah cry.
because this time life really pull her down.
i mean really really pulled her down.
and she fell. she never fell because she is strong as a Mountain.
and its really really hurt.

Sarah lose hope.
not really.
Sarah want to lose hope.
she said she had enough.
but she did not do it. she say she is intellegent.
so she make another plan.
and this time with more effort.
and she is very sure this time the plan will meet it success.

jangan menangis sayangku. said ismail izzani.
Sarah`s plan failed again.
Sarah cry.
Sarah want to lose hope again.
but this time she really want to.
but she scare.
so she called everybody.
to let them know she really want to do this. to lose hope.

but everybody probably believe her or love her to much. she dont know.
they said Sarah come on you can do this. you are strong. you are determine.
Sarah cry. Sarah stop crying, laughing and she said okay.
little did they know Sarah did not stop crying. and she fake her laugh.

Sarah keep wonder.
what should she do.
so she pray.
she talk to god and she ask.
what are you really want me to do god?
God doesnt answer. Sarah cry again.

and Sarah still wait for the answer.

Malaysia boleh, you boleh. -my mom-